weight

So what does weight really do? i never really figured it out. I have some concepts, ideas, that make me think about heaviness, and my own importance. But really i think it is so much more than that. what you weigh is a serious part of who you are, when you're more stressed you eat more etc. I made a really big decision today, I'm gonna wrestle in the 189 weight class, instead of trying for the 171. So i can eat as much as i want pretty much, but i think i'm going to try to drop anyway. Because i want to be lighter. I'll lose weight, and build up muscle and all that good stuff. I'm probably really heavy right now, like 180 or something, maybe even higher, and we've got our weight certification test today, so we'll see if i have enough fat on my to drop to the lighter weightclass, but i think i will keep wrestling in the heavier one, even once i drop below 171 pounds. My eventual goal is 165 or so...I want to at least hit it, because it's been a REALLY long time since i was under 170, and i'd like to be again. I don't actually know if that's a feasible thing, especially if i keep building up muscle, but i'll probably end up with a 6% body fat or so, which i would enjoy, probably weigh about 170. Hopefully i'll have enough fat on my today, so i can lose enough weight to get down to 171, but i don't know if i do. Right now i feel really fat, but i just ate a huge amount of food for lunch, i'll prolly skip dinner or something. all that healthy stuff. I just thought about the concept of weight, feeling fat or heavy, feeling light, everything. So that's my goal, maybe by putting it down here, it'll keep me in line a little better, so i don't have to always be watching myself, which gets really tiring.