musik

So i deleted the music icon on my blog, because i got really annoyed that it would constantly play lollipop, and yet never play any of the other songs...So i took it off. And i haven't missed it since (it's been 3 minutes). I hope that i'll finally be able to sleep tonight, i took like 8 sleeping pills, and maybe that'll make me sleep through the night, but i actually kinda doubt it. I forgot to do some of my homework, so tomorrow is gonna suck, and i feel sick cause i ate a couple cookies, and i haven't been eating anything sugary really in the past few weeks. Dieting is hard, but sticking to it is the hardest, i love eating so fucking much, i realize that now, when i can't eat whatever i want, and have to eat similar things every day. It's almost painful. It's turning lunch and dinner into a chore, not the best part of my days anymore, i've started considering what would happen if i just stopped eating, but i always through that out, for several reasons, the first being that i need the energy to wrestle, and i can't let myself or my team down. The second being that whenever i get really hungry, or i don't want another salad, i put on some music, and it makes my life ok.