Run Spot Run

So it's one in the morning, or will be by the time i post this, I'm up at my countryhouse, knowing that i should be going to sleep soon (waking up early to go to the nearby "city"), and instead i'm staying up to write about anything that pops into my headpiece, and listening to highway to hell. So the first off, i love this place. I used to dread coming up here, part of me still does, because whenever i'm here, that means we have time off, and i'm not seeing my friends, or online (with a real internet connection), or any number of things that i love doing in the city. I have a couple friends up here, but i'm not here often enough to really cement anything, so it's just occasianal flings and parties and wild crazy midnight skinny dips, which by the way are really stupid when the water is freezing cause it's fresh mountain rivers up here...So I normally spend all my time up here doing just that, being up here. That in itself is a blessing, I get to relax all the tension and everything that i store inside of me when i'm here. Even with my parents here, i feel like i'm more me than any other place or time. There is always something i'm doing for someone else, no matter who or what it is, except here. Here i work for my dad, i shower when i have to, and i just exist. It's a simple life, eating amazing food, sleeping, working, and hanging out with no one but myself, and sometimes a movie or sommat w/ the rents. I try to keep in touch with everyone as much as possible via phone, and now internets, but usually i end up sortof dropping off the radar. One thing that always happens, is i don't shave very often, and as i'm just noticing now, i need to shave now. unfortunately, this is becoming a much more frequent problem, and i'm trying to stick to my rule of not growing it out until i get to college, partially because it's irritating, and partially because my bro looks like a weasel or rat or something, and partially because it'll just look like a spotty high school whatever for a little while, and there's no point in having that. So for right now i'm just gonna be using this blog as a little bit of a diary or something like that, but i can get feedback and also i can feel like instead of closing myself off in my own private world, in a way i'm opening myself up to everyone (everyone meaning the internet world, which accounts for almost everyone.) What i want to do, is join, or make if they don't exist but i'm sure they do, a group of writers that's completely anonymous, and simply write whatever and whenever i feel like it. I want to make this blog into that, but i'm afraid that people will just post crude shit, although that is part of it. But i cannot do that as of yet, so i'll keep it the way it is. I'm going to try to write some sort of fiction or not-fiction, for the next entry or two, so even though i may post something, it might not be the entirity of the piece, or it might be. I just haven't done much creatively recently, and i think it's been weighing down on me.