paying the price

Gazing at the sky so far,
focused on that one true star,
i cannot simply tear away,
before my beauty fades to day.

Once the horrid bright sun comes,
all feeling for my life numbs,
my ice walls slowly melt,
on my skin the sun is felt.

My eyes no longer hide the light,
from the deepest darkness night,
instead the tears slowly fall,
hopeless puddle 6 feet tall.

Hapless harmful creeping height,
without only the concept of right,
I cannot move this body's tears,
without disrupting locked up fears,

instead a fugitive inside,
no longer anywhere to hide,
when hateful rays of crayon gold,
reveal the seams from my mold.

My peace resumes its mantle,
disguising every half-glanced hate,
shrouding my darkened candle,
completing any crime of fate,

letting pleasure creep,
into a blackened shadow,
sinking infinitely deep,
releasing black truths flow

for my star.