visiting

I'm so sick of her always showing up whenever things seem to start being ok with some problem. She manages to pull things up from a while ago and throw them into light again, seemingly without any purpose beyond being pissed off. Right now i'm in Penn State, so i can't talk too much, but she just popped up again, and it seems like she cannot coexist with me peacefully. I don't understand why it has to be so difficult. It's probably my fault and i don't even realize it, but i cannot see how that would work. I visited lehigh today also, it really excited me, and i officially have lengthened my list to 3 schools that i'm very seriously considering as top choices:
Renssilaer Polytechnic Institute
Drexel
Lehigh
I like each of them for completely different reasons, which is making it very difficult to figure out which one i would pick as a top choice if i was forced to. I like the feeling i'm getting from Penn State at university too, although i will spend the next week sweating and dieing here, i think i may end up putting it on that list to as the big school that i would apply to. So far Lehigh would be the hardest to get into, seeing as they accept a higher level of academic work, and fewer students, but i don't think any of them is beyond me. I need to go get some sleep though, tomorrow is gonna be a huge day. I hope Julia doesn't bother me in my dreams like she has before, it's always torture.