Crazy world of life

My life is crazy, but good/bad. Recently everything has either been working out, or i've been dealing with it not working out. I've actually been on top of everything, managing everything. It seems like my final year will actually work out. I'm producing a record, and almost everything is looking up. The downsides are that i'm so busy i can't even think. I haven't had the time to really write anything in along time, but i'm planning on fixing that. I'm planning on posting more regularly, because once i get back into it i think that i'll really be able to let go again, and express myself completely, making life a little less stressful. My dad and i aren't really talking too much right now, but i'm ok with that, i'd rather not be talking than constantly be fighting at home, which seem to be the choices. I've learned a lot about how to exist on this world, and how to just set your mind to something and do it, with out hesitating or debating. And how to make yourself do or not do something against the stimuli of your desires. Those two things are helping me take control of my life again. It's a pretty wonderful feeling. There are some bad parts, of course, but in general i'm managing to ignore them, or accept them as a part of things. I still miss Mara, but i'm surviving, and emailing, and i will continue indefinately. My mind has been tired most of the time from lack of sleep, cause my days are just so full and busy, but I'm used to that. Been losing weight too, and in a few weeks i should drop back down to 170, and look fit as a flying monkey's face. So in general, i'm enjoying life, for once, and i recognize that it's my own effort that's making it work that way. I do want to work on not being as flirtatious, because i've gotten in trouble quite a few times so far because of it, and also work on being self-centered, stop worrying about myself so much more than everyone else around me (it makes sense that i do it to a certain extent). So those are pretty much my "resolutions" if you want to label them that, but really i just want to become a "better" person, and shape up who and what i want to be.