update

i added a few new blogs to my list of blogs that are awesome, so def peep them. Also I'm about to head out to Martha's Vineyard, and idk if i'll have any internets up there. so we'll have to see what goes down, i hope there is for many reasons.
In the intervening time that i haven't really been posting, i've been very very busy. I've started on a literary journey, which will end who knows where, maybe an imaginary god. It's no where near done, so i'll put that up in a little while, once i really have more than a few pages to show for my effort. Also i've started handwritting a lot, partially because i can really do it anywhere as long as i bring my book along with me, and don't have internet or anything. Well i guess my internet non-posting started about 2 maybe 3 weeks ago. I had been upstate; where i have a VERY slow connection, which is painful, but i managed. then i came back to the city, and met a wonderful person. She was visiting from Belgium, I'd met her before, her family and mine are good friends, but i'd never really met her. The other times i was a little too young and immature, distracted by everything else going on and a little intimidated by the fact she was older and a girl (gasp!) but this time we just clicked almost immediately. The first day we ended up going for a walk and just talking for a long time, and we probably would have kept talking until forever if we were allowed. The next two weeks after that were just amazing. I had found a new friend, and we were forced to spend every moment together. That may sound like a little bit of a drag, but instead i thought the exact opposite. She seemed to be perfectly designed to be with me, using almost as much sarcasm as i do, and making jokes that made mine seem stupid...But i didn't mind because i got to tease her right back, probably about all the weight she was putting on in the states (all of like 5 pounds! gasp!). I showed her all around the city and brooklyn, i even went on my first ever rollercoaster ride with her (on the cyclone of course, i am a brooklyn boi), she screamed of course, as i sat stoicly silent next to her like any man should :P. I really want to go on some crazy one. We went and saw Wall-E with Jessi (my friend not my brother obviously) And she fell in love with it the same way that I did, and we could really talk about it, take it seriously, and i could even admit that it was amazingly cute for a movie... Then we went upstate for the next while, my countryhouse. I love my countryhouse because i am able to just relax and just BE. I guess i've always been a little afraid of bringing anyone up there, because i don't want to pretend for anyone else while i'm there, or what if they don't love it as much as i do? there are a lot of things that go through my head. But it really opened my eyes because i didn't try to be anything but me around her, strange for someone i just met to see me so openly, but we had gotten pretty close by then. Also she fell in love with it too, and we spent time outside and inside, always together, going to town and all, eating my mom's amazing food of course. She came with us when we visited my paternal grandmother and aunt (and pseudo-uncle). It was great, we went wandering around together, and went for a bike ride; went to a good will (thrift store) and i got an amazing shirt and a crazy one, which she was disgusted with me for of course, i'll try to get a picture of it and post it when i have a chance. But whatever we did we always had a great time because I was there with her, no matter what, watching late night double features or w/e it was, even though we didn't share the same taste in everything, we were able to talk about everything. Then we went back to my countryhouse, where we spent another few days, unfortunately she got a little sick, fever sore throat, that kind of thing. So she stayed in bed and i ran around trying to get everythign i needed to do done. Then came my worst day in a long time. I went to take my driver's test to get my liscence; set it 5 weeks in advance for this day, and this time, and it would work perfectly, and i'd been looking forward to it for about 5 years, ever since my brother got his i've been excited to get my own, taking my learner's permit test, and wanting to take driver's ed and all of that. Me and my mom drove an hour and a little to the town where i was taking it. Than we realized that i had forgotten the little certificate that proved that i had taken the driving course, and as i'm under 18 i needed it to take the test. Because it's a beauracratic organization, there was no way to reschedule or do ANYTHING about it. So i couldn't even take the test, but failed it automatically. So much for me being smart. Then i got home and thought about myself, negatively of course, for a long while. The rest of the day i was seriously out of it, like when any other dream or hope comes crashing down. Not even being ABLE to take the test had really done a number on my psyche, i hadn't even failed it because i couldn't drive well, i knew i could drive well, I just didn't have a chance. I need to go now, but i'm going to finish later if i can. So long boyos!
-R