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17.8.08
long day
It's been a very long day. Two bad things happened, i lost my ring, which i really liked. I'm really sorry about it, but i was stupid and wore it into the ocean and when i bodysurfed in on a wave it fell off my finger into the water, now it's gone forever. Another thing is one of my earphones on my ipod headphone things is broken, so i can only listen through one ear. I needed new ones anyway, so i guess this is the perfect excuse isn't it? It has just been a long day, and there's no one to hold at the end of it, which makes me sad. I did see pineapple express, which was an amazing movie, and quite hilarious. Thats all.
-R
-R
15.8.08
what it do
there's no point in wanting to do something, and not doing it, or desiring something, but not acting on it.
14.8.08
freedom
This is a very delayed response to my own question a few months/weeks ago *don’t really remember* But it’s about freedom. I guess it was around the 4th of july, so a month and a week ago about. I have a weird definition of freedom; it’s pretty simple, but mentally intensive in my opinion, but i could be wrong and it’s just a cop out, who knows! I think true freedom is being able just to be yourself. No matter the circumstances or the people around you. Truly knowing yourself, i don’t know if it’s possible or anything. Being comfortable in your own skin, that is true freedom, and what i hope the american ideal is based on. Accepting all peoples for who they are, and allowing them to be that.
resolutions
So I’ve got a few resolutions, i guess you could call them self-discipline resolutions, not really connected to anything except my desire to be a better person, it’s also half a shopping list, but i wanted to get it down, and maybe by putting it up here i’ll be more inclined to actually accomplish all of them (not just some)
1) Showering and brushing teeth and exercising every day, getting enough sleep (personal upkeep)
2) Keep my room cleanish (not sparkling but managable)
3) Do all my homework and schoolwork
4) White Ts (plain)
5) Suit
6) Dress shoes
7) Take pictures again (put them on the blog)
8) Finish/keep writing my story
9) College apps stuff
So far that’s everything that i can think of. If anyone has any other ideas shoot em out, there’s quite a possibility that there’s just something I’m missing and you think of it. So let me know! or if you have any other ideas that you want my input on go for it.
1) Showering and brushing teeth and exercising every day, getting enough sleep (personal upkeep)
2) Keep my room cleanish (not sparkling but managable)
3) Do all my homework and schoolwork
4) White Ts (plain)
5) Suit
6) Dress shoes
7) Take pictures again (put them on the blog)
8) Finish/keep writing my story
9) College apps stuff
So far that’s everything that i can think of. If anyone has any other ideas shoot em out, there’s quite a possibility that there’s just something I’m missing and you think of it. So let me know! or if you have any other ideas that you want my input on go for it.
update
i added a few new blogs to my list of blogs that are awesome, so def peep them. Also I'm about to head out to Martha's Vineyard, and idk if i'll have any internets up there. so we'll have to see what goes down, i hope there is for many reasons.
In the intervening time that i haven't really been posting, i've been very very busy. I've started on a literary journey, which will end who knows where, maybe an imaginary god. It's no where near done, so i'll put that up in a little while, once i really have more than a few pages to show for my effort. Also i've started handwritting a lot, partially because i can really do it anywhere as long as i bring my book along with me, and don't have internet or anything. Well i guess my internet non-posting started about 2 maybe 3 weeks ago. I had been upstate; where i have a VERY slow connection, which is painful, but i managed. then i came back to the city, and met a wonderful person. She was visiting from Belgium, I'd met her before, her family and mine are good friends, but i'd never really met her. The other times i was a little too young and immature, distracted by everything else going on and a little intimidated by the fact she was older and a girl (gasp!) but this time we just clicked almost immediately. The first day we ended up going for a walk and just talking for a long time, and we probably would have kept talking until forever if we were allowed. The next two weeks after that were just amazing. I had found a new friend, and we were forced to spend every moment together. That may sound like a little bit of a drag, but instead i thought the exact opposite. She seemed to be perfectly designed to be with me, using almost as much sarcasm as i do, and making jokes that made mine seem stupid...But i didn't mind because i got to tease her right back, probably about all the weight she was putting on in the states (all of like 5 pounds! gasp!). I showed her all around the city and brooklyn, i even went on my first ever rollercoaster ride with her (on the cyclone of course, i am a brooklyn boi), she screamed of course, as i sat stoicly silent next to her like any man should :P. I really want to go on some crazy one. We went and saw Wall-E with Jessi (my friend not my brother obviously) And she fell in love with it the same way that I did, and we could really talk about it, take it seriously, and i could even admit that it was amazingly cute for a movie... Then we went upstate for the next while, my countryhouse. I love my countryhouse because i am able to just relax and just BE. I guess i've always been a little afraid of bringing anyone up there, because i don't want to pretend for anyone else while i'm there, or what if they don't love it as much as i do? there are a lot of things that go through my head. But it really opened my eyes because i didn't try to be anything but me around her, strange for someone i just met to see me so openly, but we had gotten pretty close by then. Also she fell in love with it too, and we spent time outside and inside, always together, going to town and all, eating my mom's amazing food of course. She came with us when we visited my paternal grandmother and aunt (and pseudo-uncle). It was great, we went wandering around together, and went for a bike ride; went to a good will (thrift store) and i got an amazing shirt and a crazy one, which she was disgusted with me for of course, i'll try to get a picture of it and post it when i have a chance. But whatever we did we always had a great time because I was there with her, no matter what, watching late night double features or w/e it was, even though we didn't share the same taste in everything, we were able to talk about everything. Then we went back to my countryhouse, where we spent another few days, unfortunately she got a little sick, fever sore throat, that kind of thing. So she stayed in bed and i ran around trying to get everythign i needed to do done. Then came my worst day in a long time. I went to take my driver's test to get my liscence; set it 5 weeks in advance for this day, and this time, and it would work perfectly, and i'd been looking forward to it for about 5 years, ever since my brother got his i've been excited to get my own, taking my learner's permit test, and wanting to take driver's ed and all of that. Me and my mom drove an hour and a little to the town where i was taking it. Than we realized that i had forgotten the little certificate that proved that i had taken the driving course, and as i'm under 18 i needed it to take the test. Because it's a beauracratic organization, there was no way to reschedule or do ANYTHING about it. So i couldn't even take the test, but failed it automatically. So much for me being smart. Then i got home and thought about myself, negatively of course, for a long while. The rest of the day i was seriously out of it, like when any other dream or hope comes crashing down. Not even being ABLE to take the test had really done a number on my psyche, i hadn't even failed it because i couldn't drive well, i knew i could drive well, I just didn't have a chance. I need to go now, but i'm going to finish later if i can. So long boyos!
-R
In the intervening time that i haven't really been posting, i've been very very busy. I've started on a literary journey, which will end who knows where, maybe an imaginary god. It's no where near done, so i'll put that up in a little while, once i really have more than a few pages to show for my effort. Also i've started handwritting a lot, partially because i can really do it anywhere as long as i bring my book along with me, and don't have internet or anything. Well i guess my internet non-posting started about 2 maybe 3 weeks ago. I had been upstate; where i have a VERY slow connection, which is painful, but i managed. then i came back to the city, and met a wonderful person. She was visiting from Belgium, I'd met her before, her family and mine are good friends, but i'd never really met her. The other times i was a little too young and immature, distracted by everything else going on and a little intimidated by the fact she was older and a girl (gasp!) but this time we just clicked almost immediately. The first day we ended up going for a walk and just talking for a long time, and we probably would have kept talking until forever if we were allowed. The next two weeks after that were just amazing. I had found a new friend, and we were forced to spend every moment together. That may sound like a little bit of a drag, but instead i thought the exact opposite. She seemed to be perfectly designed to be with me, using almost as much sarcasm as i do, and making jokes that made mine seem stupid...But i didn't mind because i got to tease her right back, probably about all the weight she was putting on in the states (all of like 5 pounds! gasp!). I showed her all around the city and brooklyn, i even went on my first ever rollercoaster ride with her (on the cyclone of course, i am a brooklyn boi), she screamed of course, as i sat stoicly silent next to her like any man should :P. I really want to go on some crazy one. We went and saw Wall-E with Jessi (my friend not my brother obviously) And she fell in love with it the same way that I did, and we could really talk about it, take it seriously, and i could even admit that it was amazingly cute for a movie... Then we went upstate for the next while, my countryhouse. I love my countryhouse because i am able to just relax and just BE. I guess i've always been a little afraid of bringing anyone up there, because i don't want to pretend for anyone else while i'm there, or what if they don't love it as much as i do? there are a lot of things that go through my head. But it really opened my eyes because i didn't try to be anything but me around her, strange for someone i just met to see me so openly, but we had gotten pretty close by then. Also she fell in love with it too, and we spent time outside and inside, always together, going to town and all, eating my mom's amazing food of course. She came with us when we visited my paternal grandmother and aunt (and pseudo-uncle). It was great, we went wandering around together, and went for a bike ride; went to a good will (thrift store) and i got an amazing shirt and a crazy one, which she was disgusted with me for of course, i'll try to get a picture of it and post it when i have a chance. But whatever we did we always had a great time because I was there with her, no matter what, watching late night double features or w/e it was, even though we didn't share the same taste in everything, we were able to talk about everything. Then we went back to my countryhouse, where we spent another few days, unfortunately she got a little sick, fever sore throat, that kind of thing. So she stayed in bed and i ran around trying to get everythign i needed to do done. Then came my worst day in a long time. I went to take my driver's test to get my liscence; set it 5 weeks in advance for this day, and this time, and it would work perfectly, and i'd been looking forward to it for about 5 years, ever since my brother got his i've been excited to get my own, taking my learner's permit test, and wanting to take driver's ed and all of that. Me and my mom drove an hour and a little to the town where i was taking it. Than we realized that i had forgotten the little certificate that proved that i had taken the driving course, and as i'm under 18 i needed it to take the test. Because it's a beauracratic organization, there was no way to reschedule or do ANYTHING about it. So i couldn't even take the test, but failed it automatically. So much for me being smart. Then i got home and thought about myself, negatively of course, for a long while. The rest of the day i was seriously out of it, like when any other dream or hope comes crashing down. Not even being ABLE to take the test had really done a number on my psyche, i hadn't even failed it because i couldn't drive well, i knew i could drive well, I just didn't have a chance. I need to go now, but i'm going to finish later if i can. So long boyos!
-R
13.8.08
really cool pictures
I like some of these pictures, some are stupid, but it looks like an amateur photographer having a good time taking pictures, and i like that, reminds me of me!
http://www.reebok.com/US/#/product?modelId=30034734&articleId=R951657
http://www.reebok.com/US/#/product?modelId=30034734&articleId=R951657
9.8.08
haha, this is great
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:
I do physical labor.
I work at great depths.
I plunge headfirst into everything I do.
I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
I work in a damp environment.
I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
I work in high temperatures.
My work exposes me to contagious diseases.
Sincerely,
P. Niss
The Response:
Dear Penis:
After
assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised,
the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:
You do not work 8 hours straight.
You fall asleep after brief work periods.
You
do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay
in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations.
You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.
You
leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't
always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing the
correct protective clothing.
You will retire well before you are 65.
You are unable to work double shifts.
You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have completed assigned task.
And if that were not all, you have been seen constantly entering and exiting the workplace carrying two suspicious-looking bags.
Sincerely, V. Gina
wrong
Is it wrong to feel like the world would be a better place without you?
not in a morbid and sadistic sense, like i want to kill myself, but in the sense that if you were erased from the world, birth, death, life, everything. If my parents only had one child, and if my ex-girlfriends hadn't ever dated or known me. This isn't a suicide note, there are completely different circumstances between killing someone or something that is already in the world or it never having existed. If i died now all of my friends would miss me, and i would leave a hole in their lives that i have made, but if i didn't exist ever, they would be just as happy. So what do i contribute to this world, beyond more self-pity and unhappiness? I think the answer is not much, so i try to make it better, and i fail every time.
not in a morbid and sadistic sense, like i want to kill myself, but in the sense that if you were erased from the world, birth, death, life, everything. If my parents only had one child, and if my ex-girlfriends hadn't ever dated or known me. This isn't a suicide note, there are completely different circumstances between killing someone or something that is already in the world or it never having existed. If i died now all of my friends would miss me, and i would leave a hole in their lives that i have made, but if i didn't exist ever, they would be just as happy. So what do i contribute to this world, beyond more self-pity and unhappiness? I think the answer is not much, so i try to make it better, and i fail every time.
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